Seh's Sparkling

chapter 2

2011-08-14T07:52:00.003+08:00

just finished my 8 weeks training from DreamCatcher ...
training here is not the same like learning in the university ..
previously in university,
we pay to learn, result good or not, is up to u.

now ?
we are paid to learn, no matter what, u also need to some outcome from there.

well... for me, learning is great. get to know new friends(not colleagues, but soon)
see something i never see b4. ^^

here i share some moments we being together...

the situation when we all "focus" on our work ~

Having lunch together in Azuma

Solving problem in group, playing LEGO set

Well, at the end i managed to complete the whole training with 100% attendance

i enjoyed along the learning path ..
next i going back to reality already -----> working , after the training ... haha
stay tune ~

next chapter ~

2011-06-01T09:46:00.002+08:00

Nothing much but upper side of it. All the while was ok, but at the very last strike, missed it.
Well, what done was done. In the next chapter, life not gonna be easy. Such precious opportunity i got, i'm appreciating it.

So, still going on...

原来……

2010-11-03T07:57:00.002+08:00

从没想过短学期是怎么样的……
直到自己亲身体验了才知道……
上课读书温习做工了才发现……
原来短学期是这样匆忙段暂……
很想找个时间找个地点歇歇……
从忙忙碌碌中寻找回中心点……
不然一不小心就会失去平衡……
希望与支持一直都在我身边……
要懂得发现它感受它的存在……
而且也要学会反应任何困境……
以便在茫茫人海中快乐学习……
^^

憾

2010-08-08T12:39:00.002+08:00

何曾时候看回自己的时候，就觉得不可思议。
人啊，一直在进化，一直在改变。
从小时候到现在，思想不断转换。
这几天里，一直忙碌的过活，却没停下脚步来查寻
那已失去的感性，当初还以为理性会好些，而且做起事来也不需要放些感觉下去。
就把感性埋没起来，因为不需要它。没了它，事情、功课、任务执行起来也比较顺畅，因为没有感情。黑就是黑，白就是白，没有灰色地带。
可是每当忙碌的生活结束，就会感到空虚。
因为没有了暂时性的目标，不知往哪走。不知怎么
昨天考完试后，就看了些香港连续剧《浦松龄》，看着看着
就投入在每一段有意思的情节里，看到它的价值。
就联想到年少时候我是怎么对待自己的父母，年少时的不足。
人总会有犯错的时候，但是往往都不会觉得自己错，而是埋怨他人的不足，使到自己被受连累。然而，当看回自己的内心时候、当被感触到的时候，就会慢慢的想想自己。
为什么自己错了还不承认？也许当下的自己没有那一点点的觉照吧。
当自己一个人静静时，脑海里总会浮现“过去”与“未来”，从没想过当下，也没好好的把握当下；就一直地往“过去”与“未来”。明日复明日，明日何其多；昨日复昨日，昨日何其多。
人若有当下的觉照，很多细节，很多烦恼，很多错失都可以挽回，都可以避免。
很多人都知道，但都没做到。其实也知道也好，但如果……就没有如果了。
何曾想，我多久没感性了？多久没觉照了？

jaga diri...

2010-07-21T07:56:00.002+08:00

dah minggu ke-8 la... aku masih belum sedia semua ni,
dah hari ni makin dekat...
kan aku tau, berdikari, tak payah lah orang lain tegur lagi kan /.\
dah 22 ni, ingat masa tu aku masuk uni, apa yg aku nak ?
dah sampai skrg ni, aku pun belum capai lagi.
hanya satu-satu ni saja.
masa ni, hang semua tengah buat apa? bersoronok ke? belajar ke ?
dah lebih dari satu bulan aku tak balik pinang le.
tiap-tiap hari kat depan komputer, tengok langit kat tingkap kiri aku
hidup manusia ni pelik la? bila aku nak balik ke "zaman gila buku" aku?
berat kerja khusus dah makin banyak, buku yg kena baca lagi meningkat.
oi... dah sampai masa pergi buat pengajian pelaran la...

okay saja ni la, bila berdepan dgn apa-apa pun
aku kena tenangkan hati aku, dan lihat betul-betul
baru saja buat keputusan.
sama dengan hang juga... berusaha lagi .. ^^

Power up...

2010-07-03T13:29:00.002+08:00

again again i 'm telling myself...
get to work more harder.
I need to gain the strength from confidence.
work ? study ?
no no no ... i should have to start my study long ago.
now ? I'm proceeding to another level, another stage,
another form of life...
that is what i going to be.

it is almost there, going for my last birthday in my university life...
it's just a starting point of life.
changes all along the path.
next year's today's date... i might b somewhere in the industrial zone d.
back to now... going for my FYP...
and enjoy the last year life in university ...

time passes fast...
it is year 3 already ...
^^

Power low...

2010-07-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

the fuel getting lower and lower...
the concentration getting lesser and lesser...
are u with me ?
where r u now ?
where are u, my heart ?
the efficiency getting low...

where is ur heart ?
how long have you been never with ur heart ?
ah seng... week 5 going to end lo...
where r u ?

Mungkin Nanti

2010-04-24T09:34:00.006+08:00

Munkin Nanti
seh

Dan pasti bila nanti ,
Kita kan bertemu Mei ni,
Satu ujian jangan kau lari,
Tanyakan kembali,
Masa yang ku tunggu mati,
Seperti hari malam tadi,
Saat semua kat ujian ni.

Dan mungkin bila nanti,
Bila dapat keputusan nanti,
Hilang sendiri kat dunia ni,
Tanyalah sendiri,
Kenapa tak jawab hati-hati,
Sekarang kena sesal lagi,
Tapi usaha semester depan lagi.
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Mungkin nanti, satu lagi lagu yg ku suka ni,
sedangkan hari ujian/peperiksaan semakin dekat ni,
ada orang nak dapat markah baik, ada orang langsung tak peduli,
kan sekarang dah semester akhir bagi tahun 2 ni,
tahun 3 nanti akan lebih susah lagi,
maka, sesetengah orang hanya usaha untuk dapat kertas saja ni,
tapi, sesetengah orang pulak tumpu perhatian dalam markah tinggi,
walaubagaimana pun, kan kita hendak gemari
masa dalam 3 tahun ini.
sebagai pelajar di Universiti .
bagus, biar kita usaha sepenuh hati,
menuju ke masa depan kami !!

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Mungkin Nanti
Peterpan

Saatnyaku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

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MHDG ( Misi Hilang Dalam Gerakan )

2010-04-13T20:14:00.003+08:00

hey .. mane hang pergi ni ? lama x jumpa la.. mcm hilang kat dunia je.
bukan la.. mane ade hilang.. pun x rehat la.. kan skrg punya cuaca a...
panas mcm neraka .. mane2 pun x pergi . kan balik kat rumah pun sasah nak belajar.
peluh2 seluruh badan. tidur pun tak lena.

kan dah minggu ke-13 ? masih tak senang lagi ke ?
hey , bang... kak... minggu ni 1 ujian kecil dan assignment nak hantar lar ...
minggu depan lagi teruk ... kan nak UJIAN terakhir, lagi nak hantar 3 assignment lagi.
memang mcm tu la ... tiap2 semester pun mcm ni punya .
tak kan la hang tak tau ?

OSP aku pun belum mula ulangkaji lagi.. skrg nak balik ulangkaji lah..
jumpa lagi le.

the 10th week in university...

2010-03-24T05:21:00.002+08:00

woke up 1 hour b4 the time i write the blog ..
now ?
currently curi-curi write my blog ... cos i need some break from my
freakish assignment the MIPS processor.
dunno le ... some how this semester
i gotta feeling that i not as free as usual...
CT ar Ct ... always like that.
begining of semester that is from week 1 ~ week 6 ...
i am quite free that time ...
but after that ... i think u also can imagine ..
everyone also has their way of busy..
i cant say i am more than them..cos 一山还有一山高.
haiya .. dont to write so much le ..
just wanna release some negative energy here only ...
going to continue my ah mok's assignment soon ..
^^

While waiting her...

2010-03-13T20:31:00.004+08:00

some how ... i like the view near block H and block G
while waiting her ..
i took some pictures...

Flowers in front of library

day time view

The lights are nice...during daytime u wont see this scenes
night time view outside library ^^

Night view of block H

a view from UTAR bus..night falls ..but still a lot student there.

let's see...

2010-02-22T07:08:00.002+08:00

the skies still dark ... now
7am++
well...today monday and
it is already 22 feb 2010
and
THIS IS
WEEK 6

what is coming on ?
slow slow la ...
one by one

first ... Math 3
kinda blur for me now .. what series and what transform ...
from Fourier series -> Fourier Transform -> Laplace Transform -> Z transform
walau ...
Test 1 on week 8, test 2 on ?
but the style changed again ...need to comfirm with Mr. Goh later..

DSP aka digital signal processing
another that deal with those math 3 Series and transform...
50% CW consider
Test 1 and 2 for 20% ,
Assignment 1 and 2 for 30 %

OS & P aka Operating Systems and Practices
50% CW consider
Test 1 and 2 for 20%
Practical Test for 10%
Assignment for 20%

OOP aka Object-Oriented Programming
also
50% CW consider
Week 7 -> Practical Test 1 10%
Week 8 -> Written Test 1 10%
Week 9 -> Assignment Given
week 10 -> take a breath for it
week 11 -> Practical Test 2 10%
Week 12 -> Written Test 2 10 % & Due week of Assignment 10%
total 50 % again

COA aka Computer Organisation and Architecture
this one gay !!
50% CW also
but this 50 % is completely Mini Project
---> Single Clock Cycle MIPS Processor ..
but divided into 3 parts ...
Week 10 -> summit part 1 -> The Specification of the MIPS Processor
this is regarding bout Initial Specification Development
Week 12 -> summit part 2 -> The Block Specification, design and verification of the MIPS Processor
This part also gay .. use Verilog describe the Micro-Architecture Spec. ,Design and Verification

week 13 -> wao.. this is interesting ..
part 3 -> Chip Specification and verification of the MIPS processor

Who project divided into 4 Core
-Data-Path (register file, ALU, d-memory) (2 persons)
-Address-Path (1 person)
-I-memory & D-memory (1 person)
-Controller/Control-Path (actually is 2 person, but i sui-sui kena 1 person,luckily teammate will lend a hand)

Last and not less
Economics
week 6 saturday already need to face the TEST 1 d ... !!

so a Utar ....CT ( Computer Engineering ) student ...like me .. going to face his fate
that is every semester
quite lengan-lengan at 1st few weeks ..
after that work like the buffalo in the paddy field from week 6 onwards
until when ?
until study week ? yaya, but in mini project last semester not Exam studies.

after that only have the bloody hell short time to revise ..
walao ... kinda nut's course ...
but my batch still lucky ... no need to arrange the course timetable myself ..^^
haha

Seh ar seh... What is ur Main Aim in UTAR ?
u will find out soon ...

going for week 3 d ...

2010-01-31T08:29:00.002+08:00

well....
sometimes, when u having a good time, u will feel that the time passes so fast ..
walau eh ..
2 week passes d ..
and coming on week 3 pulak.
seem like i still a bit blur ... my timetable is killing me .
the timetable going to change again.
3 times in 3 weeks... especially on friday.
what a marathon study day ...
from
block E, 8am~10am
to
block I , 10am~12pm
to
block E, 12pm~1pm
to
block H, 1pm~2pm
to
block B, 2pm~3.30pm

everything mess up...
life is it so miserable ?
kinda frustrated, cos quite 三魂落魄...
this semester going to have more things to handle and to cover.
ape la ni ...
some how... i think i should slow down my activities d,
and have a pump in studies.
cos BASIC is very important leh .
anyway...
hope to get back to night 10 morning 5 asap .
cos i feel that my body no longer at the age of 15,16
now i can feel the tiredness already.
monday till thursday ... every day study till 7pm
after come back still need to go meeting ..
after meeting come back already tired and just brush teeth go to bed.
next morning wake up late . and things din get done ...
lim chin seng ... what are u doing ?
what are u going to do on this sem?
dont get myself disappointed.

JUST DO IT !!
^^
jiayou jiayou

year two thousand and nine & year twenty-ten

2010-01-02T18:20:00.004+08:00

hey, hang kat mane skrg ?
aq tengah kerja la, bang...
kerja kat mane ni ?
bang... skrg ni aq kerja, x masa ckp dgn hang. nanti aq call balik k x ?
ok la... nanti ingat call balik , tau ?
hana, tau la tau la...

3 months sem break... what have u done ?
me ? are u asking me ?
ya...or else ...
ooo, 3 months ar... a lot lo ...
u arh... din update ur blog for quite .. no no .. is very long time d loh..
ya le.. lazy to write also... keep on bo eng bout my own things..
lu bo eng hamik ?
wa bo eng ar ..? wa bo eng kao cha boh lo ...
swt la...

yaya ... flash back my 2009...
sept...
after finished my examination...went to taiping for singing..

oct:- all my memories there
after finished singing...went back hometown - Penang for 1 week ++
saw my result ... stunned ...
come back on 17th to get my activities stuff prepared.
i remembered 17th night... dunno what am i doing also..
keep on laughing ... 傻傻地笑... hahahha.. someone know why.
faded away old mind thinking. prepare to recieve new magical moment.
the skies was brighten up by stars.. can b clearly seen. . . where ?
West Lake... going to 18th..after 18th... the tiny hand with the rough hand.
university started ... but this time, my time devote to BS.

every tuesday & thusday night - go to meditation class.
tuesday - BS activity
wednesday night - dharma class .
all bout activities ..
visit ? some place le ..
hahhahaaha ... someone asked me.. i din write my blog in english for so long d lo.
not dun want to write...
IS LAZY to write... chinese mayb more easy to express out my feeling ba ..
haha

nov le
still the same... busy for activities ...

dec ...
walao .. the sandstorm month. stand a chance to work at EAST OCEAN restaurant in East Lake.. the pay ? i think totally better than an UTAR student assistant !!
but just part timer only... the "bossy" treat me so nice, always call me for free lunch ..
ya, u din eyes blur , is FREE lunch .. what reason leh ?
cos her workers cant finish all the food that the chef cook ma, so call mai me there ..
save some $$ .. but not every day i got part time job to do..
yaya... went to KL . for what ? IYBCC lo ... just a meeting for buddhist coordinate counsel.
the month that GF went back hometown ... suddenly, feel like ...
--> --> --> time passed till 2 days b4 christmas eve.. went to Mr. Kuek house to make some pies... what pies ? -> apple, pineapple blue berries , corn ... taste great
lonelyness christmas eve , nothing to say... haha
new year eve also so so only... new town kampar there a lot ppl celebrate there.. but watching my colleagues break dancing at the center zone there.. but police come and kacau pulak ... " hey , smua surai .." zzzz walao ....
now the writer also feel a bit zzzz ....

dun walk bout two thousand and nine ...

talk bout twenty-ten 2010
wao twenty-ten ...
set myself a target ..
this year ... Y2S2 , 21 credit hours , GPA aim 4.0000
or else "pak si bo gao" , cos i need CGPA 3.5000 and above.
so that i no need return the Highest education misnistry the PTPTN loan $$..
muahahahaha.. getting pumped !!

Y3S1 pulak .. also the same !! aim GPA 4.0000
what else ... want to b superman ... what also can, what also possible...

games ? nah ... games is ok, but computer games ( all sort ) will ruin my life, ruin my plan
delay my plan, make my life effectiveless ..

i think i can b more and more better ... YES YES YES..
CGPA increasing ... woo hoo ... love my course...
twenty-ten what else ?
what else what else

this Y2S2 ...
i have total 21 credit hours or 6 subjects
- mathematics III
- Digital Signal Processing
- Computer Organization and Architechture
- Object-Oriented Programming ( JAVA )
- Operating Systems and Pratices ( LINUX )
- Elective II ( mostly choose Economy )

the hardest among these 6 subject for me is ...
i also dunno ... i think all i can handle !!
muahahahaha
( getting crazy since i typing this blog )

lastly, wont forget my love one ... LY^^
miss u.

all the best to my family , LY , friends , housemates , BS friends, coursemates in ...

TWENTY-TEN 2010

^^V

杀那……

2009-11-04T10:49:00.004+08:00

在茫茫的3 个月多的放假中……每个人都有属于自己的空间及活动吧。
然而，在这次的假期里……
择选了自己所要的活与生。
静坐、禅修、备课、生活、工作、活动、进修、上网、游戏、运动、休闲等等等……

在禅修中……林心光老师谈到
每一弹指 = 60 杀那
每一弹指 = 大约0.1秒
0.1秒 = 60 杀那
那 1 杀那 = 0.1 秒/60 = 0.001666秒 = 1.6667 x 10^-3 秒 = 1.6667 milisecond

Frequency 频率 is the number of occurrences of a repeating event per unit time

Frequency 频率 = f

The period 周期 is the duration of one cycle in a repeating event: Period 周期 = T

so the period is the reciprocal of the frequency

从那儿看来，杀那的频率是等于
T = 1.6667 milisecond
f = 1/T = 1 / 1.6667 milisecond = 599.988 Hertz (Hz)

所以一杀那的频率是大约 600Hz
比起现代的电脑，似乎我们慢很多，
因为电脑的 clock speed (Core 2 Duo 的低速度) 大约 2 GHz
就是我们的 3，333，3333 倍快。

所以保守估计
一秒里就有 600 杀那
一分钟就有 36，000 杀那
一小时就有 2，160，000 杀那
一天就有 51，840，000 杀那

就如根据《阿毗达摩论》里、禅修里所说。
做好事的喜悦及法喜的杀那越多……
我们所得到的好果报就越多。可能会在今世实现（如果成熟的活）。

试想想……如果恶念生起，哪怕一秒也好
都已经有 600 杀那了。
所以啊……我们要时常往好的想，往好的做。
即所谓
“已生善令增长
未生善令生起
已生恶令断除
未生恶令不起”

所以不管我们做任何事情，都要起善心啊……
不只是在做的时候，
在做之前、中及后都要啊……
毕竟我们还是凡夫，当然会不经意的起恶念。
但通过禅修，我们可以对我们的一举一动开始清楚
然后慢慢地朝向
“已生善令增长
未生善令生起
已生恶令断除
未生恶令不起”

哈哈……
愿
福慧双修 ^^

始于足下

2009-10-16T14:40:00.003+08:00

哈哈……都回槟岛那么久了，竟然没去找老朋友。总算在今天匆匆忙忙地见了一面。
吃吃点心，喝喝点“三味名茶”，谈谈地，谈谈天，谈谈他我的近况。
谈谈他我的佛学会…… ……
有多少人知道为什么他/她/它会“家入”佛学会吗？
学习？
-学以“自”用，还是学以“全”用？只要是学以至用就可以了吗？
-在学会用？还是带回去用？因为佛法好，所以在哪儿用都可以。
-学习的目的在哪儿？

办活动？
-办来给人家学习，还是办来填补空闲时间，或者是增进学员的归属感，还是…… ？
-学员，是 "HI & BYE" 或是一起来承担。
-一但活动办完，是否他们还会再来？

纯粹的分享……
click here -> 继持法师谈承担
（Video 采自马大佛学会2009/2010年度执委说明会：继持法师谈承担）
内容关于：
“承担是什么？很沉重的东西？
各位有意承担的菩萨们，
在学会感动过的菩萨们，
可以再一次听听师父的叮咛，
愿大家有所收获，也肯定自己未来在学会的路。”

競甡合十

因缘

2009-10-11T18:56:00.010+08:00

自从回到“冰岛”（槟岛，因为天气还蛮凉爽的）那么久……到现在都还没写过部落格……哈哈，是忙还是茫。不讲那么多，将时间倒退到几天前吧……
上个星期五、六及日参与了太平佛教会五十周年纪念的《海潮滙》。原本只是想去那儿“wash eyes”、“eat wind”及帮忙摄影的，原因是我没尝试唱过《海潮滙》的歌，而也没练习唱过。到了那儿，全部人在练习唱歌，而我……唉。所以啊，就学唱唱几句咯。唱唱几下，啘，其实感觉还蛮好的。就索性跟着一起唱吧，结果就把奎仲的歌谱抢了一半过来。哈哈哈……就在那时，决定要一起参与演出；就在那时，决定要把歌儿唱。

其实我能参与演出，也要多亏几个‘人’/单位啊……不然我也没这个缘分去参与。^^haha 不然这个时候我因该是躲在家里面对着电脑吧。说真的，这次的参与虽然没给我佛法上的提升很多，但也有不少的收获。但最主要的是，佛法可以通过很多形式弘扬，正所谓的观机逗教及契理契机吧。只要围绕着佛教的中心思想-缘起法就可以了吧？

在Rakan Muda Kemunting

亲近继程法师

在太平市议会礼堂

穿了Batik 之后的我^^

全车出动

我们的Batik 装，我妈说女生其实是在穿Baju Kurung罢了
只有美珊，嘉薇和芊蔚的是有点Batik 罢。哈哈

生平中第二次化妆

Uncle-Uncle们还是 YB 们 ?

马来少女系列

我与奎仲

幕还没开时，先拍下一张

拉大之佛学会

在《海潮滙》布帘下

我、奎仲与国华

我的拍档-莉蓉

与张尉乾师兄合照

McD lo

与莉蓉庆生

这是人人看到都想呕的照片，我也不知道为什么？

与程+张师兄合照

在太平佛教会的最后一天

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

说起因缘……今天去了檀香是寺做环保。从师兄们打听到秦依纯的消息，听说她出家了，法名为释显性法师。当时我听到了这消息，真的很震撼，也有些疑问。想不到才刚毕业不久，就已经出家了。但听到师兄们的解释，我才知道，她的因缘据足了。自从她上了大学后，进修了不少，而且弘法这条路（只是我的想法）是她的选择吧。想起……自从在五月的《全营》见过她后……这是我们在2005年的第一届领袖培训生活营拍的。在槟城的升旗山别墅。

她就是坐在前2排右4，浅蓝色衣的。2006/1/1

在升旗山缆车站2006/1/1

因缘吧……但还是要祝福你！^^

疑惑……

2009-10-02T08:36:00.002+08:00

不能、不要、不行、不可、不想、不会、不敢……
能、要、行、可、想、会、敢……

不能 !? -> 能
不要 !? -> 要
不行 !? -> 行
不可 !? -> 可
不会 !? -> 想
不敢 !? -> 敢

只是一“不”之差，意义非凡。
如果只是单字，就能人所不能。
奇妙吧？
人往往都画蛇添足……
加个 “不” 字给它吧，结果事情往往都给砸了。

当把“不”字除去之后，人生肯定会有些改变。
之所期待吧？
还是疑惑着…… 咸的心 · 心得青

矛与盾

2009-09-22T09:36:00.002+08:00

“以子之矛陷子之楯”

“

戰國時，有一個賣盾和矛的楚國人，先是自誇他的盾說：「我所賣的盾堅固無比，沒有東西能把它刺穿」；又誇讚他的矛說：「我所賣的矛十分鋒利，沒有東西不被它刺穿」。旁人聽見後，忍不住的說：「如果用你的矛去刺你的盾，結果會如何?」楚國人一時無法回答他的問題。

後來這個故事被濃縮成「自相矛盾」，用來比喻言語或行事前後不一致，相互牴觸。

”

虽然自相矛盾，用來比喻言語或行事前後不一致，相互牴觸。

但人生往往都会有自己的矛盾？

何谓自己的矛盾……

当自己发觉到了，也觉得自己在为自己制造一个笑话。

体面上来说，矛是用来攻击或给予伤害的武器；而盾呢？是用来预防或防范的防卫器。

当自己把自己的矛弄得尖利时，就觉得我的矛具有最强的攻击能力。

但人啊，往往都难以兼顾到双方面的圆满。

就如故事里头的矛与盾，有了最好的矛，有了最好的盾

就会有了矛盾。

唉……

要废除矛盾，必须要有矛或盾其中一个弱的一面吗？

还是要以51%和49% 分配？

有时真的还真不了解自己要什么？

当设定了目标于A，往往B的多多少少都会忽略了一点点。

人只能专注于一项东西而已吗？

多希望自己能把各方面都能做好，

但会不会当各方面都很好时，

矛盾产生呢？

1st exam paper today...

2009-09-14T17:37:00.005+08:00

either it die or i die...
but mostly probably
both also injured seriously

but utar wont get the benefit.
cos i still standing.
hard fight today...
fight with time, fight with question, fight with over COLD air-con
fight with thirsty, fight with correction pen no ink
fight with writing speed,

FIGHT with the BMP's lecturer INSANITY + TIME COSTLY + GOD-LIKE
questions.

HE THOUGHT HIS STUDENTS ALL GOD-LIKE
AND ASSUMED WE ALL ABLE TO ANSWER.

now i only know why..
he said...
"ur senior manage to get highest is B, the rest are C"

cos ur question not for human to do one.
is for non-human do one.

IF this paper i get A,
i belanja those who leave comment here eat when they come my hometown

but there is chance i kena belanja one la...
GG.

是这样吗？

2009-09-11T19:57:00.004+08:00

“
男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人，
因为20多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点,
没钱、没地位，没房、没车、没事业，不能独立又不想依赖，挣扎着彷徨着，寻找自己的位置！
而20多岁的女人却是她生命中最灿烂的时候；

男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人，
因为二十多岁的男人还很“懵懂”，
而二十多岁的女人却很灿烂；

二十多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点，
而二十多岁的女人却是她的大好华年；

二十多岁的男人很不知珍惜，
而二十多岁的女人最需要被珍惜；

二十多岁的男人自卑到极点所以非常自负，
而二十多岁的女人却在努力建立他的自信；

二十多岁的男人不懂爱，不会爱却需要爱，
而二十多岁的女人需要被爱，需要关怀，却要付出呵护付出关怀；

二十多岁的男人没钱、没事业，但有欲望
而二十多岁的女人空守着自己的韶光不再；

女孩子二十岁左右是她最美丽的年华，这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。
男孩子在二十多岁时遇见了一个年纪相当的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，因为这个女孩是用自己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最暗淡的日子！！！
女孩只要陪他走过，女孩会永远幸福下去~~~

当女孩对你撒娇甚至无理取闹时，请男孩不要烦恼女孩，因为她们有道理这样，我们没理由烦恼，我们要做的就是很理解很理解，保护好这位天使，等我们到了30岁，正当我们最美丽的时候，也请你不要放开这位曾经的天使！！！二十多岁的男人不知道珍惜,不知道感恩.

当他们三十多岁的时候,事业有成,成熟稳重.
开始嫌弃曾经陪伴过他,但不再年轻的女人.
有人说男人其实是最专一的.
因为从20岁到80岁的男人都喜欢20岁左右年轻漂亮的女人.
这是个笑话,但也是个事实.

有人说现在的年轻女孩都很现实,眼中没有爱情.
称着年轻嫁个有钱的,一辈子也就有个归宿了.
男人有时好比洋葱,要想看到洋葱的心就需要一层一层去剥。
但是女人在剥的过程会不断流泪剥到最后才知道，

原来洋葱是没有心的.
”

所以我说啊……
20 多岁的女生……嫁给30多岁有事业、有成绩的男生会比较好吗？
还是更自己年龄差不多的男生一起拼搏，事业有成后再嫁？

20 多岁的女生啊……
还是靠自己最好……
什么时代了啊……

年轻的一代…… 一代不如一代
也最不会珍惜所拥有的……

算了，
还是与电脑沟通好了吧！
对不对？

kood | book

2009-09-10T08:40:00.004+08:00

ah Mxx said :" CT is organized for study only, not meant for others else"
ah Mxx said:" u(all) are shape for intel, altera, and others digital/analog design company"

apela ni ...

so... i ma have to study... study and study lo ?

ah Mxx said:" 你唔好读死书啊！！"

den ...?

ma den lo ....
study better la...
bo 3.0000 and above = liao lian ...

ßeta --> àlpha --> gamma --> delta

lolz

muaaahahahahahahahahaha........

My BMP

2009-09-07T08:23:00.006+08:00

end of the semester d...
this semester i was facing 3 mini projects..
Basic Microprocessor is one of them.
just some sharing with u all what i had done.
UCEC 2054 Basic Microprocessor
4 credit unit
each week
2 + 1 lecture
3 hours practical
1 hour tutorial

but this semester quite interesting bout this subject ...
which we have to write the assembly code for the traffic light control.this is just a simple traffic light control. Cars from side road can interrupt the signal in main road when the hit the sensors. den the main road have to change it's signal light to red after 5 second.
But this traffic light sequence is follow the foreign country one

Seq. No.	Main road	Side street	Time duration/second
1	Green	Red	20
2	Amber	Red	2
3	Red	Red and Amber	2
4	Red	Green	5
5	Red	Amber	2
6	Red and Amber	Red	2

this kinda weird for our country right ? red and amber light on together.

after writing the assembly code, just program it into the EDS 8806 experiment board through the BCG-8088 training kit.The BCG-8088 Training Kit. The bigger chip beside green little round thing is the Micoprocessor for the year of 1979. haha .. we using the old processor... that processor is made by Motorola, called 8088 microprocessor.

The EDS 8806 Experiment Board

When they Connected together. The Black cable is the power supply cable,
gray cable is connected to serial port of CPU, the flat gray connector connect to EDS 8806.

The right most 3 LED represent Main road from red-amber-greed
The left most represent side road, also red-amber-greed
stopwatch used to record the interval timing change of LED light.

here start the demo without the interrupt sensors function. after that use bout 2~3 days to figure out how to implement the interrupt sensors function... actually is not that difficult after figuring it out.

this is the timing i recorded down during the demo. Is not 100% accurate to implement the delay for LED la... just agak-agak only... cos cant program exactly 2,5,20 seconds in assembly language ma...

enjoy~~ ^^

"any tips" !? ---> I'm NOT lectruer !!

2009-09-05T10:22:00.003+08:00

-"bpw gt any tips"
-"cn gv me"

·"-.-"
·"no tips"

-"really ?"

·"din go lecture yesterday ..."

hello ... please la ... wanna exam d only ask for tips...
b4 that where u went to ? what u done ?

now only come ask me for tips ?
hello ... i'm not lecturer, i din set those exam papers la...
i just a student... how can i give tips ?
even lecturer also not exactly say he will give u all "TIPS" la...

hello... if u wanna ask for tips also not ask like this la...
if u want tips, u straight away ask lecturer like this..
what kind of response do the lecturer need to give u ?
u expect they tell u bulat-bulat ke ?
mana ade orang tanya macam ni ?

"都唔识 DO geh ..."
change ur style of asking question la and talking la...
others will treat u better a bit one...

banyak kali kena tunggu sampai najis nk keluar baru cari "toilet" ke ?
hang ingat kau ni siape ?
bkn smua org pn bleh tahan perangai mu la...
kalau nk minta bantuan, tanya la "face 2 face"
ape pasal gn MSN tanya sini & tanya sana..
buat spai org ____ + ____
hang nk belajar... tanya betul-betul dgn ikhlas...
bukan spai nk hantar atau nk peperiksaan baru je tanya.
org lain jg ade mslah sdr.. bukan hny malah hang je...

once again
be polite if u want any thing from others.
be humble if u dunno something
be early if u wanna ask for help
be "醒目" of the way of asking question

thats all...
if i can help, i sure will help.
i also have my own limitation...
i also have my own style...
i also have my own rule...
this apply to some ppl too.

dont forget...
i just a student now... i'm not a lecturer

as Mr.Mxx said " U're so 差 !! "
"ya, i'm 差... in front of u... but no ppl know i'm 差"
Mr. Mxx said "i heard that u are better than ur junior"
"as u said b4, we cannot compare with junior, we must compare with u"

sweating...

supreme liking my course...

2009-09-02T09:08:00.002+08:00

lim peh sipek suka my course d ...
walau....

not only this semester... (Y2S1)

previous semester (Y1S1)
previous previous semester (Y1S2)

future semester (Y2S2)
future future semester (Y3S1)
future future future semester (Y3S2)
future future future future semester (Y3S3)(Industrial Training)

u guess wat ?
since i study CT aka Computer Engineering till now...
every semester...
from week 1~ week 7,
-doing experiment in lab...
-study...
-more free than other IF no other elective like those LAN/ART subject come in interrupt

from week 8~ week 12
-summit all experiments lab reports
-start implementing what we learn from lecture to design something for each subject that got lab section
-mid-term, test 1/2, quiz all squeeze in these weeks
-some technical assignments and mini projects "baru dilepaskan"..

from week 12~ week 14
-work days and nights for those mini projects
-pick up things in few days
-work like machine
-even sleeping also dreaming bout how to proceed my projects
-must think logical, reusable, mass production, precisely, accurately, creativity
-calculator/keyboard/mouse pressing non-stop
-facing PC/laptop at least 12hours a day

IF mini projects cant finish within week 14 ?

Lecturer A:" u all come back in week 15 la !!" (WTH... week 15 ma si study week?)
in my mind :" lu ma kah ya gao !!" (u very brilliant)
Lecturer A:" ur senior all also work till week 15 wat? i have see these kinda things for 8 chapters( 8 semester). So, i think is the same for u all la"

Lecturers met b4...

Lecturer B:"this mini project is very easy la, i think u can finish it within 1 day la"
in my mind :"lu shio kua eh ki wa lang liao"( u look up on us)
Lecturer B:" i assume u all know how to do d la"
in my mind :" lu shio kong lu eh hak seng jin jhia gao ho" (u think ur student very clever?)*not all le...

Lecturer C:" (facing whiteboard)This one a .. like this lo, that one like that lo.... see or not ? see or not?"
in my mind:" cant see la... u are blocking the way...and u keep on reading out all things from lecture notes..."

Lecturer D:"(french tone english) !@#$%%@#%$#^^$^*&$%^"
in my mind :" lu kong hamik? " (what u said?)

now d week 14...
others courses already finish presentation and lecture...
now can start study d or some can have party d ...

me?
still working on my DSD mini projects... WTH...

wrong wrong wrong wrong .....
this one wrong...
this one should not like that
that one should not appear..

BANG !!!
project rejected back....
week 15 no need go back d...
week 15 need to go UTAR VIVA again d...

that's y ...
i like my course like crazy...

take a rest d..now need to go back on work ...lolz

Clock Cycle

2009-08-31T07:36:00.004+08:00

clock cycle
1 clock cycle = 1 period
frequency = 1/ period
period = time in second
over clock ? = over clocking the clock cycle
most of the Microprocessor today is around 2 GHz ~3.2GHz

so...

period = 1/frequency
period = 1/3.2GHz
period = 0.000 000 000 312 5 second
period = 3.125 x 10^-10 second
period = 312.5 pico second
period = 0.3125 nano second
period = 0.000 3125 micro second
period = 0.000 000 3125 mili second

1 clock cycle = 1 period
1 clock cycle = 1(0.3125 nano) second
1 clock cycle = 0.3125 nano second

1 second how many clock cycles ? = 3,200,000,000 clock cycles

light speed = 0.299792458 nano second

1 clock cycle < light speed

means that Microprocessor now with 3.2GHz clock speed ..
which is the 1 clock cycle's time is close to the light speed.
how fast it is ?
...

the last strike...

2009-08-27T08:14:00.002+08:00

finally...
just left a total of 4 reports and 2 mini projects
to be hand in
in the SAME day 1st SEPT 2009
week 14 liao still need to do much work.
time for study leh ?
ape nak cakap, X dak masa langsung.
projects mari, kena puas puas lah ku..
this time, I want all my project go on smoothly d ..
don't ever reject back !!
or else week 15 / study week i kena come back to
VIVA again for my project..
sound pity, but this is reality.
KC ee !!
these few days really had a bad bad habit of sleeping
mostly did not sleep more than 4~5 hours a day..
kena screw gao gao ... made my face look damn damn tired and no energy
bo chap...1st thing 1st
b4 kena screw up, better i screw the up the Basic Microprocessor's 4 reports and mini project 1st, abo at the end i kena screw back by the Digital System Design's eh Ah Mok.
siao eh... so many things push till late sem for summit and VIVA.
the most TL thing is VISTA cannot not run the program use to do our project for BMP.
walao. kena go utar block E211A/B use their lab and their training kit only can settle our thing.
mkhy...
i think i better to go now... abo will be screw up side down liao.

** for junior of Computer Engineering(CT)
** Dont ever thing that CT's name is COOL !!
** u'll regret if u come in...but u can go out with 3.0 above nia than u are better than others...

madnessless...

快爆了

2009-08-26T19:19:00.002+08:00

我觉得我该是时候找个心理辅导员看看了
或是……
整个脑袋快要爆了……
有谁能帮我吗？

忙 · 果

2009-08-25T08:03:00.002+08:00

日茫夜盲，夜忙日莽；
天天夜夜，忙盲茫莽。
即使再忙，眼睛勿盲；
只要你在，就为你忙。
忙到盲了，就吃点芒；
免得奔氓，你为我忙。

The Way to ...

2009-08-16T08:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes...
have been busy for so long, till days and nights
always forgotten ...
why am i so busy ?
busy mini projects, assignments, tests, reports and etc....

why most probably on week 8~week 14 continuously ...
from week 1 ~ week 7, i can be so free ...
actually, things can be done partial along the way
just like the reports, assignments, mini projects, tests.
little by little...by not accumulate them

after then, might probably u will feel be carefree in body and mind
but why things have to get done b4 last night ?
it is not enough pressure ? not enough stress ?
i wondering...
but when all sort of work stack on.. or keep on pushing it in...
by not popping them out ...just like a stack of coins
why dun thing get queued ?
first in first out, last in last out, with the concept of queue
but not first in last out, last in first out with the concept of stack

compare to last sem ...
this sem i am more unmotivated, just feel like do not have the strength to move it on
but mind keep on thrust forward.
last semester, i done all the things in flip of eyes.
but this sem all work stack on table and i still wondering ...
why i still din move it
actually the things can be done in few hours
but somehow i took days.
keep on searching...searching searching..
searching for what ?
searching for what i want ...
what i want actually ?
i guess i have to reset my mind d
the mind that floating all over Kampar.
settle down ? ya.. i need to settle my mind down.
the frequency getting over high, the clock cycle too fast until my movement cant catch up.
therefore... jammed...
an instruction cycle havent finish perform, the the BUS cycle already finish up...
T1,T2,T3,T4 in Basic Microprocessor...
instead of slowing down the clock, the BUS cycle
why dont add in a WAIT state ?
but can i always add in a wait state ? it is not practical
why dont i just slow down the clock cycle and add lesser wait state
after the system become more stable that time,
i only adjust back the clock frequency back to high stage.

DSD ? digital system design - i lack of practicing the Verilog Code, just know the concept and know how to analyst the code. CODING is important ... !!

BMP ? basic Microprocessor - i lask of practicing the coding part also .. !!

ED2 ? Electronic Devices 2 - need to keep on refreshing ..

Math 2 ? - need to keep on practicing the question and get to know the proper way to get answer

BPW ? basic Professional Writting- need to enchance my gramma ...

what else ?
dun talk bout FiNal is coming, just talk bout what coming next

week 12
-math 2 - test 2 + assignment due date
-ED2 - Mini Project summition due date
-BMP - Postpone of test 2 to tuesday, and start do Mini Project
-DSD - have to start doing part 2 of Mini Project d

but i feel lucky this sem d ...
from 6 Mini Projects, has been reduce to only 4
but the DSD's actually quite easy, just need to take some time to analyst and do it
walau....

(breathing...)

ok start now !!
in order to be carefree in body and mind !!

这会是以后的我吗？

2009-08-09T16:20:00.008+08:00

有一天，
媳婦說：

「煮淡一點妳就嫌沒有味道，現在煮鹹一點妳卻說咽不下，

妳究竟怎麼樣？」

母親一見兒子回來，二話不說便把飯菜往咀送。

她怒瞪他一眼。

他試了一口，馬上吐出來，

兒子說：「我不是說過了嗎，媽有病不能吃太鹹！」

「那好！媽是你的，以後由你來煮！」

媳婦怒氣沖沖地回房。

兒子無奈地輕嘆一聲，然後對母親說：

「媽，別吃了，我去煮個麵給妳。」

「仔，你是不是有話想跟媽說，是就說好了，別憋在心裡！

「媽，公司下個月升我職，我會很忙，

至於老婆，她說很想出來工作，所以 ....」

母親馬上意識到兒子的意思：

「仔，不要送媽去老人院。」

聲音似乎在哀求。

兒子沉默片刻，他是在尋找更好的理由。

「媽，其實老人院並沒有甚麼不好，

妳知道老婆一但工作，

一定沒有時間好好服侍妳。

老人院有吃有住有人服侍照顧，不是比在家裡好得多嗎？」

「可是，阿財叔他.....」

洗了澡，草草吃了一碗速食麵，兒子便到書房去。

他茫然地佇立於窗前，有些猶豫不決。

母親年輕便守寡，含辛茹苦將他撫養成人，供他出國讀書。

但她從不用年輕時的犧牲當作要脅他孝順的籌碼，

反而是妻子以婚姻要脅他！

真的要讓母親住老人院嗎？

仔問自己，他有些不忍。

「可以陪你下半世的人是你老婆，難道是你媽嗎？」

阿財叔的兒子總是這樣提醒他

「你媽都這麼老了，好命的話可以活多幾年，

為何不趁這幾年好好孝順她呢？

樹欲靜而風不息，子欲養而親不在啊！」

親戚總是這樣勸他。

兒子不敢再想下去，深怕自己真的會改變初衷。

夕晚，太陽收斂起灼熱的金光，躲在山後憩息。

一間建在郊外山崗的一座貴族老人院。

是的，錢用得越多，兒子才心安理得。

當兒子領著母親步入大廳時，

嶄新的電視機，42吋的螢幕正播放著一部喜劇，

但觀眾一點笑聲也沒有。

幾個衣著一樣，髮型一樣的老嫗歪歪斜斜地坐在發沙上，

神情呆滯而有一個老人在自言自語，

有個正緩緩彎下腰，想去撿掉在地上的一塊餅乾吃。

兒子知道母親喜歡光亮，

所以為她選了一間陽光充足的房間。

從窗口望出去，樹蔭下，一片芳草如茵。

幾名護士推著坐在輪椅的老者在夕陽下散步，

四周悄然寂靜得令人心酸。

縱是夕陽無限好，畢竟已到了黃昏，他心中低低嘆息。

「媽，我........我要走了！」

母親只能點頭。

他走時，母親頻頻揮手，

她張著沒有牙的嘴，

蒼白乾燥的咀唇在囁嚅著，一副欲語還休的樣子。

兒子這才注意到母親銀灰色的頭髮，

深陷的眼窩以及打著細紋臉。

母親，真的老了！

他霍然記起一則兒時舊事。

那年他才6歲，母親有事回鄉，不便攜他同行，

於是把他寄住在阿財叔家幾天。

母親臨走時，

他驚恐地抱著母親的腿傷心大聲號哭道：

「媽媽不要丟下我！媽媽不要走！」

最後母親沒有丟下他。

他連忙離開房間，順手把門關上，不敢回頭，

深恐那記憶像鬼魅似地追纏而來。

他回到家，

妻子與岳母正瘋狂的把母親房裡的一切扔個不亦樂乎。

身高3呎的獎杯──

那是他小學作文比賽「我的母親」第1名的勝利品！

華英字典──

那是母親整個月省吃省用所買給他的第一份生日禮物！

還有母親臨睡前要擦的風濕油，

沒有為她擦，帶去老人院又有甚麼意義呢？

「夠了，別再扔了！」兒子怒吼道。

﹝這麼多垃圾，不把它扔掉，怎麼放得下我的東西﹞。

岳母沒好氣地說。

「就是嘛！你趕快把你媽那張爛床給抬出去，

我明天要為我媽添張新的！」

一堆童年的照片展現在兒子眼前，

那是母親帶他到動物園和遊樂園拍的照片。

「它們是我媽的財產，一樣也不能丟！」

「你這算甚態度？對我媽這麼大聲，我要你向我媽道歉！」

「我娶妳就要愛妳的母親，

為甚麼妳嫁給我就不能愛我的母親？」

雨後的黑夜分外冷寂，街道蕭瑟，行人車輛格外稀少。

一輛寶馬在路上飛馳，頻頻闖紅燈，陷黃格，

呼一聲又飛馳而過。

那輛轎車一路奔往山崗上的那間老人院，

停車直奔上樓，推開母親臥房的門。

他幽靈似地站著，母親正撫摸著風濕痛的雙腿低泣。

她見到兒子手中正拿著那瓶風濕油，

顯然感到安慰的說：

「媽忘了帶，幸好你拿來！」

他走到母親身邊，跪了下來。

「很晚了，媽自己擦可以了，你明天還要上班，回去吧！」

他囁嚅片刻，終於忍不住啜泣道：

「媽，對不起，請原諒我！我們回家去吧！」

~完~

有时候，读书读到累了……

做功课做到累了……

都会常常问自己：“我读那么多，是为了什么？”

“我上大学是为了什么？ ”

父母真的很希望看到我读那么多书吗？还是孝顺他们多一点？还是我时常打电话回家多一点？

还是他们想看到我多一点？

读书是为了让我们拥有更好的工作，更好的薪水吗？

当薪水越高的时候，工作就越繁多，越来越累。

回到家时，还有机会更父母谈谈吗？

有时，想到有更好的工作，有很好的薪水，就能给父母一个更好的环境养老。这当然不是老人院啦。

可是当花在工作上的时间，已经多过16个小时时，回到家会不会很累呢？

到时忙病了，还是需要父母来照顾……

最近，不管自己再多忙也好……几乎每天都只睡几个小时……

还是要给家里打通电话，不然每次妈妈打来，其实就是我很久没打回去了吧？

以后……会是怎样呢？

a short sharing

2009-08-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

just today...
i had received an email from a friend in penang.
after i read it.
i click on the link she sent me.
just a short film sharing with u guys...
it meant a lot.

Synopsis: This film is about the hunger and poverty brought about by Globalization. There are 10,000 people dying everyday due to hunger and malnutrition. This short film shows a forgotten portion of the society. The people who live on the refuse of men to survive. What is inspiring is the hope and spirituality that never left this people.

View this movie at cultureunplugged.com

after watched the short film...
thinking back what i saw...
not only in Kampar,Penang..
i think any country on the Earth...also have this kind of scene...
but not many of us notice bout it...
everyday, every minute, every second, every single breathing....
there are peoples die of Hunger...

As today we live in Malaysia, the scene does exist...
be thankful what we have now.

lastly just a quote from Ven. Zhen Xin
"

LET US BE THANKFUL AND COUNT THE BLESSINGS WE HAVE INCULCATED THROUGH OUR PAST GOOD ACTIONS.

MAY WE CONTINUE TO PLANT GOOD THOTS,SPEECH AND ACTIONS.

MAY EVERYONE BE WELL, HAPPY AND HEALTHY ALWAYS.
"

with metta,
chin seng

reverse synchronize !?

2009-08-02T17:07:00.007+08:00

just came across with XXX last night ...
what XXX told me,
"if u continue like this, i think i better get off from u"
"for me, i also dun like the one of u right now"
"if u change urself or be urself like b4 u r, i will be ____ "
i felt XXX is right also...i also din like what i am now.
what i need is let XXX know, i made a decision that XXX also know.
XXX agree with it...
so...?
hyiek hyiek hyiek ...
u'll never know .
only XXX & i know...

蜂与蝶与花

2009-08-01T14:09:00.004+08:00

花……
想起花，
人人都联想起
花香、花美……
如果
花少了那份香与美
就与别的草木没什么分别
如果，
有一天花不再美，花不再香
人就会不理睬花
因为不值得去理睬它
宁愿再去买过新的，也不会回头望它
人与蜂蝶在这方面很相似。
蜂与蝶采完花蜜，就不会回到它身边。
除非花从新在发放花蜜。
但花并没埋怨，而且很感激它们
感激它们把它的花粉散播出去。
只要……只要……把好的花粉散播出去
就会配到好的种籽。
人啊……
要种下好的种子，谈何容易……
每天似蝶般陶醉在这花花绿绿的丛中……
忘了……忘了……活着是怎么一回事的
只要有一天，就过一天，累了就休息，
肚子饿了，就采花蜜填肚子。
如果有一天，就像童话故事般……
没了粮草的是后，
蝶……会是怎样呢？
相反的蜂会怎样呢？

好的种子种下之后，
就要每天浇水、施肥、照顾及珍惜……
才会长出美丽的花朵。
当然要中道啊~
虽然花多于让人欣赏，但有谁能明白花的苦？
所谓:" 花无百日红" 啊……
但，
看花……不能只看外表啊，被采了的花，是常久不了的
花就要以整棵看，才是它本身。
花就是有绿叶在，才能显示出它红；
绿叶就是有花在，才显示它的重要。

人啊……
不能一直都靠自己活，要有别人的打岔，介入
才能活出自己……

花是需要绿叶的……
花是需要蜂蝶的……
花是需要照顾的……
才能继续绽放新花……
才能继续……
才能延续……

毛衣的存在……

2009-07-25T18:26:00.003+08:00

唉！！！
真想象不到…… 社会的进步越来越快了……
汽车有GPS system,
电灯有 auto tuning light intensity system，
脚踏车有电力推动器，
手提电话的功能越来越多，包裹相机，3G，双插卡等等……

最重要的，也是改变越多的
就是电脑……
从以前的 intel pentium 到现在的 Intel Core i7
从 DRAM，SRAM 到现在的 DDR3 RAM
从黑白的荧幕到现在的 flat screen liquid crystal display, LCD
总之，进度很快，一直不断的在改变……
但是，给于从前到现在的电脑
都有一个共同点
就是有那神通广大的 RESET BUTTON .
当电脑有事，我并不怕，因为它有得reset.
不管有时 Hang 去或有事，只要按reset, 大部分的难题都能解决。
要不然就送去维修，在不然就换掉/丢掉，卖过新的。
都是很简单的
因为电脑里只有一或〇。
一就是一
〇就是〇
没其他的。

面对电脑，即使有问题出现，我到现在都不怕。
因为它都会显示出 error message 啊。。。
要不然就 Hang 去罢了。
而最简单的就是按 RESET .

但但但但。。。
人呢？
最懊恼就是
人如果有问题都不会出示正确的 ERROR MESSAGE
最死的是人会 Hang 着，
而且还会永远对你 HANG 着。。。
那你能怎样？
reset 他吗？

问题是人没有reset button 啊！！！
如果有就好咯……
世界就不会有战争咯
人不像电脑叻。。。
walau eh ...

人啊。。。
hang 着时，就像一座冰山一样。
难以溶解，更不像电脑有得reset
面对着你，也能如此的冷淡

最近啊，马来西亚的天气那么热
而且烟霾有那么浓。。。
有遇到如此冷漠的对待
难怪啦。。。
这样热的天气，
毛衣也能够卖这么多。
lol...
岂有此理...

^^V

21

2009-07-24T05:18:00.004+08:00

a fine day...
once a nice weather day...
this is the day...
twenty one years ago...
this was the day...
having a little life signal in the day.
that was the day...
that was the day of my mother suffered the most...
that was the day of my father worried the most...

once the little life signal was born...
the feeling of suffer
the feeling of worry
have the sudden in the change
change, joys came there it be
thousands of suffer and worry...
replace with the endless joy and touch

behind the joy, that was a suffering period for a mother
her warmly care for the fetus for bout ten months...
during the period,
single step...
single movement...
also need to be take in consideration...
for her child
here start their day...
what can they do for their children

the day keep on passes...
A year old
A 2 year old
.
.
.
until she brought her child to the primary...
she leave her hand away throughout the seven years
for the child to face the primary with no fear...
she stood behind...
she watched from far...
she was glad... the untold happiness came out
he just looked back for a single smile,"i go school le..."
this was the day...
she thought "ya, seven years already..."

the waves keep on coming that time cannot escape...
118cm-122cm-123cm-130cm-135cm-137cm
-142cm-147cm-155cm-159cm-165cm....
1.7m

this was the day...
the day after twenty one years...
he is currently study oversea (just cross a Penang bridge only, what oversea pulak. sweat)
flashing back all over the years, he went through
turn back and watch at his mother, father...
why?
why the time keep on integrating the ages...
the hands, the faces keep on let the time carving on them...

this was the day...
he din stay beside them
the feeling get on deeply...
how are they going on now ?
flashing back...
this was the day...
She suffering
He worrying

now 21 year later...
What can he do
for them... ...
what they are hoping me to be ...
every time She and He asking,
when will he be coming back?
is he busy ?
is he going on well ?

this is the day
just a phone call
make their heart calm down.
just a trip way to home
the unseen happiness raises up
just a simple hold on the hands
the feeling of appreciating comes along
in the heart...

this will be the day...
he doing everything just for
Her and Him

thank you , dad & mom ...
just a silent thanks
for
for ur silent giving

the eve, with my lovely housemates - shian hoi, beng guan, joanne
"bear bear" and kok leong...

The night- as a "tua pek gong" (大伯公) ...

the night -with some lovely frens arround...

the night with a Cuury Chicken Bread...
treat it just like the i way i open durian.

messy half boiled/ quarter boiled / tertiary boiled eggs...
with .... tomato souse, pepper, ..just like rojak eggs

what they want for ? of cos want me to "drink" all.
the innocent face...

USSDC Presentation Ceremony

2009-07-17T05:06:00.010+08:00

Late late late update ....
"bo huat, zui kin bo eng ..."
6th of july, went for PJ campus for USSDC Presentation Ceremony~~
what is USSDC ?
i think most of u have to go UTAR portal to check d la ...
lazy to explain here ...
by the way i already get 40 marks in the "Emotional Intelligence, Teamwork & Leadership" la
but maximum that i can get is 25.
and 10 marks for "Creative & Strategic Thinking" during the Malaysia Festival of Mind V
what is so important bout this cert ?
i think most of the utar student also not so clear bout it ...
for instance, if ur CGPA below 3.5000 , u might need this cert to assist u.
if ur CGPA always 3.5 above, then this cert just a suplement pill for u la ..
thats all...
besides, this cert has Deputy Minister of Higher Education's signature , Prof. Ir. Dr. Chuah's signature , and 1 more .. i forgot liao ...
below is some of the photos during the USSDC PC la...

Early morning in westlake from Utar ... blur blur picture..

took it, during the journey to the... PJ campus nia lo...

who is inside the UTAR Van ? The 3 DSSC Officer lo, Ms Lok, Ms Hee, Ms Siow Ying..
and also Mr. Ngam (beside driver)
one thing is i really "get high" all the way is the driver open his indian radio channel all the way go and back ...
walau eh ...

nah .. reach PD block for breakfast in PJ lo ... The canteen just like ....

this picture in PB pulak...b4 the event start lo.. bo lang at all , 3 little cute human there only

u know what ? i representing UTAR Perak Campus go there to ........
help them set up their exhibition for USSDC..
speechless~~

but still ok la, just cant tahan ppl do last minute work only,
why ? Last minite work always not the best...

waiting for " tua liap lang " to come ...

Ms Hee explaning the USSDC program to whos interested.

Those who get their precious Cert, has the chance to take picture with 3 big big man.

.. these are the 3 big man ... Tun Ling also there ...

glad to know the BS chairlady in Setapak, sharing our experiences in BS.
if there is a chance, we will invite them to Kampar BS camp.
Ya Chie is her name, study Civil Eng.

Ms Hee and Siow Ying in the refreshment room for VIP.

Beside me is the Photograpy society chairman from Setapak Campus, he currently studying
Mechanical Eng.

the height of the room looks short...but the lighting quite nice also la..

Those who join the program "how to be an Effective Master of Ceremonies" sure will recognise this "sui cha bo" ...

The UTAR logo ... feel like ...

the graduators' fame........

i dislike pretending to read le... but some how ppl want me to pose in that way...

Outlook of Block PB , CEE

Dunno how is him now ... seem like ...

Communication and Networks Final Year Project lab ...

Normal Internet Lab

this is the one i get excited !!! COMPUTER ENGINEERING LAB
Final Year Project Lab...see or not ? one of my senior is inside there ...

lorong kat depan "mesin angkat orang" ..

simple door for library.

the books look well organize... this mean that ppl din go library look for books..
IF not, the rack sure messy... kesian saje bagi pelajar kat sana, tak tau guna bahan yg ade..

neh neh ... this is just a DSA ...

Inside the DSSC office..

Last... block PA ...this is the place they said the "Tua Tao Geh" work.

Sien nia ... upload so many photos waste quite lot of my precious time .. lolz.
but this trip also not bad la ... get to know some senior and explore myself to the study environment there.
seriously some staffs there.. the face looks not nice always " bin chao chao" dunno last night kena ape ...
haha, working in UTAR is like that one la ... stress from Big Boss, complain form student ... what else ...
this so called the work la ... abo let u cin cai cin cai get salary "tan sai kai" ah ...
student there also ... more obey the attire law than in utar Perak campus lo ...
most of them wear properly ...
abo kena screw again ...haha

^^
next post ?
wait la, tired liao la...

人间音缘~~ ^^

2009-06-30T18:09:00.007+08:00

哈哈，刚刚过的人间音缘校园歌唱比赛，是在怡保的精武馆举行的……
当天还蛮紧张，毕竟我是第一次参加歌唱比赛。
而且当地的会场也很冷，弄得我还要上几次厕所。
那天，我们早上10时多就到达了。
在等候的当儿，我们在那边看看场地以及试听在舞台上的感觉到底是怎样的
不错吧？

虽然是包着去学习及开拓视野的我，对普级没包很大的希望。
还是觉得自己还没到达一定的水平。
哈哈……想起比赛前的练习~~
根本就是台下几天功，台上两分钟。。。
哇老~~真的很考台上进度及适应能力

这就是这一次的人间音缘校园歌唱比赛海报

ah feng , 珮嘉，国华~~ 他们都顺利普级了。
进了复赛圈。他们唱得很棒叻……
《残缺也是美》

台上的background....人很多叻

纪晶木及他的两个朋友，他们都是solo的。

可爱的一组：美珊及家豪

这就是我的组，璇韵及嘉薇
我们唱《心中的阳光》

UTAR aka 拉曼大学的参赛者在后台拍张和照。

这位参赛者竟然是中学生！！真想不到。

她也顺利进入复赛圈了

哈哈~
如果没错的话，还有很多照片我还没到手。
下次才上载了。。

^^

mampui teruh~

2009-06-23T20:13:00.002+08:00

this week 4, go going gone d ..
liao lean .. many things fall behind ..
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

chase chase chase ... chase up u !!
need to chase up the step d ...
abo GG (die/good game)
this friday my 2nd sister go register with her "husband" pulak
i cant manage make it to go back ... how ?
Sunday still got singing Competition ...
if friday go back, saturday have to come back d
sunday go competition,

still yet ...reports ... assignments ... tests ... tutorials ...
wakao ...
liao lean...
bo pia kih sure die liao
every night also have to train my singing pulak ,
half way writing/doing/calculating/thinking reports,
half way nyanyi lagu-lagu
tapi bukan lagu "Negaraku"
but " Sunshine in the Heart"

xiao / siao / shiao / xhiao / chiao / cxiao / liao
oh myself ... speed up / empower / haste / DD / blood lust ...

argh~~~~~~~~

how XXXXXX am i ..

2009-06-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

today... might be over excited or psycho...

i used staple to staple onto my left hand...
after staple only felt the paint that i caused...
den i immediately threw off the staple
few seconds later...
my hand has a small bleeding hole...
walau .. what am i doing ??
i think this is the second time i staple myself.

~~ siao liao ~~

stress ? frustrated ? pressure ?
of cos no...
just the frequency of myself gone mad.

i think i should take some rest d ...
overloaded ...

...

Lecturer's words

2009-06-12T07:16:00.002+08:00

recently...
i was been scold by one lecturer...
dunno is scold or motivate.
every time he ask a question,
i answer him. but my answer slightly wrong or totally wrong.
the 1st time ...
i answered " FSM "
he replied " FSM !? My Ass, Man.."
i totally stunned. what kinda....
2nd time in same day
i answered not precisely.
he periled " 我够知我啊妈系女人啦"
walao... whole course laugh ...
3rd time
i answered again...
he shouted back "XXXX(my answer) your head la "

sweat. i think most ppl thought that the lecturer was going against me.
but from my point of view,
he actually correct me a lot.
made me more confidence to answer
not the confidence to point out wrong answer/information
and guide me to answer precisely.
actually he is quite good. some how dunno why some student quite
afraid to him.
mayb is his style of speaking.
cos he always said " You guys still dun wan change course/Univ. ar ?"
"Your course is 4 times harder than EE(electronic engineering) u know ?"
"so 硬颈(in Cantonese) " "This sem i will push u, later on i'll speed up like rocket"
"i'll kick u off NEXT SEM !!"

oh my goodness..~~
what a Quarter Nuts Lecturer...or paradigm a bit
" A caring lecturer "
haha ^^

...

其实……………

2009-06-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

“您最近不说话，怎么啦？为什么？”
哈哈…………
其实最近一直都有人问我………
“你是不是喜欢/追 XXX ？”
如果我说是，你又能怎样？
如果我说不是，你又能怎样？
其实，对一个人好，不一定表示喜欢或要追她呀？
我都对每个人都很好，只是不熟的，会比较少说话而已。
是！我承认，我是很喜欢她。
但有时候，一个巴掌是拍不响的。明白吗？
感情的事是不能强求的，只要一方没那种感觉，
就不能产生化学作用了。
而且通常都会以“我不值得你爱啦”、“我不适合你啦”、“我不是你要的等的人啊”等等理由来推辞一个人。为什么？
因为她/他对你没那种感觉嘛，所以才会以那么废的理由来推辞。
所以还是随着时空因缘吧。
有时候，就是一直有着这方面的追问，才会导致误会与尴尬场面的出现。
这不止使到一方被回避，而且使到双方都要一直保持一段距离，以避免被误会。
唉，“情” 这个字有时还蛮有趣啊……
往另一方面，我虽是个痴情人，巨蟹座的我还懂得我该在什么时候做些什么。
就不会因为几句话而做作。
而且我不是个正常人。
我是拥有未知潜能及能力的一个普通的人类。
一切还是要回到佛教的中心思想——缘起法则。
有因有缘，才能促使有果。
人世间是无常的，所以要把握好自己的当下就好。
当有多余的能力时，才做别的。

turning "A"

2009-06-09T07:56:00.002+08:00

A week of my uni life pAssed...
wAlAo , A week of busy And come out with empty ?
sometimes, unconsciously done something,
whAt hAppened ? unconscious...
hAmik life is thAt ?
well, turning An "A" ? whAt do it meAns...?
meAn All vAlue of ________(something).
All creatures hAve their vAlues....
tho Am I ? U ? Him/Her ?
Yup...
Week 2 d... Still unconscious ? tAk boleh d la...
power ^UP^ And put in concentrAtion ...
mAy be this is the time to triAn myself.
yeAr 2... yeAr 2 ...
is A chAllenging yeAr... things Are not easy ...
As sAid by "quArter nuts" AkA MOK, :" your Course Are 4 TIMES HARDER "
this sentence dunno wAnnA mAke me hAppy And frustrAtion ..
hAhA... try the best, do the best And score the BEST.
piA piA piA !!!
"Ai piA kAh chiA eh eiAh~~~"

...

“全营” 《第廿五届全国大专佛青生活营》之照

2009-06-01T16:46:00.022+08:00

These were the photos taken during the "全营"

Jven Lim(UPM-foundation in agriculture) , and Xiao Wen(UKM Brach-2nd year 营养学)

Me & Kok Leong (UPSI-4th year Education in Bio)

Line up getting our own properties

Last Discussion and preparing for Last presentation

My Faci aka Xiao Zhang “小张”(UM-2nd Year Chemistry)

Suey Seing - (UUM-2nd year IT)

Kian Hong ( UMS-1st Year Physics Electronics)

Peh Sang(USM-1st Year Mathematics and Economics)

Winnie(UM-2nd Year French)

Xiao Wen"晓雯"

Yoke Kuan(USM-KK branch 1st Year Pathology)

Lee Lih(UPM-2nd Year BBA)

Li Ting(USM-Graduated Chemistry)

During presentation

After dinner go "jalan-jalan" and photo taking

Sunset taken during that time

Posing...Bee Hoon(UUM-2nd YEar BBA) and Winnie(UM)

Jven Lim, Bee Hoon , Li Ting

Me and my Chairman of Utar Buddhist Society- Kwan Yee

Added Shi Yi, Aka blur blur OC

During the "无尽灯" night ~~

Song singing Presented by all Faci

Last night of group photo begin - our group
LUMBINI PARK

Taking Photo with 继持法师

UTAR Buddhist Society Representatives
From last row left 世一，云晶，永聪，嘉玮，珮嘉
君仪，锫滢，耔铭，競甡 aka me, 凯霓

Taiping's Hills , aka Maxwell Hills ??

haha posing...

after Finish washing toilet ...

Two of my schoolmate from Chung Ling High School "锺靈國中/钟灵国中"During form 6.
慧君 & 静琳
i surprised when i met them there ... ^^

I think that is the end of photo ba....
soon will post up the feeling b4 during and after camp..

I am back and i going soon...

2009-05-30T17:00:00.002+08:00

Just coming back from Camp today after 9 days...
quite tired... i think i need a short nap...
about those photos ... i will try to upload it asap.
and i will write my feeling towards this camp soon..
stay tune !!

best regards,
chin seng ^^

No need find me la ~~

2009-05-22T07:09:00.002+08:00

no need to find me la...
i think utar's semester result will be coming out these few days right ?
for those who have "QUESTION" which want to ask me ...
i think i wont be there to reply u back even u sms me.
cos i have to surrender my phone during the CAMP !!
from today 22nd ~ 29th...
i think my phone will be on back after 29th or during 29th.
anything just ask me after 29th la...

and and and...
i'm here to wish my fren, sh ,
for her 21st birthday.
Happy Birthday. wish u all the best.
so sorry cant celebrate with u, miss u so much l,,,r ^^

Hope all CT's and my frens get good result la ^^

A week in Penang...

2009-05-21T10:01:00.003+08:00

thus, came back from kampar.
these were some boring days for me.
why said so ?
mostly stay at home watching drama/movie or else play some game only ...

the timing i came back not in the right section. due to some of my friends still busying for their
univ own stuff, so the time i can actually meet them is not much.

but still ok la. cos i went for bowling twice, hiking at BJ hill, went out for movie and supper with some friends at middle at the night from 11 pm till 4 am ++.
Fetched my friends from Penang Airport and Penang Jetty.

Derrick playing the ball

1st half our slum score...
S = me
C = Derrick

2nd half, we were unable to finish it, due to time up.
we played for one hour only.

but the things i like most is eating in my house. tasting what my mum cooked.
haiz...
but this sem break, i cant finish what i want to do,
why ?
because most of the activities i want to do need ppl accompany, if not ? no fun at all
dont u ever go watching movie alone ?
ya i did it before.
the feeling was not comfortable.

will u go hiking alone?
ya, but if u know some uncle there, that would be nice.
but, there is no one that u know there. how ?

or go canoeing alone ?
probably very sweat... why , canoe alone in middle of the sea ? siao !!
if want also can la... but what for ? what is the meaning behind it ?

besides, i would like to go Kerachut beach, in Taman Negara Pulau Pinang.
but going there alone and need to drive/ride bout 1 hour to there and need to hike bout 45mins..
after reach the beach also dunno wanna do what? swim alone ? while hiking in the jungle, what u can imagine is ... why u will come hiking at this place alone ?
so, i think the days i left in penang for this sem break is going to end.
today, 30th & 31st May, after that i going to go back to my univ to continue my New's Year.
that is Year 2 semester 1.

recently i received a msg from my fren, he/she said he/she hope that this year would there a gf/bf accompany he/she in his/her birthday of 21st this year ?
i replied " haha, that depends on urself..."
why i said so ?
for me the pros and cons
in 21st BD, if u can celebrate with ur gf/bf, it is probably very sweet.
if u celebrate with ur friends... then u would be very happy, cos there is friends around you.
if u celebrate with ur family members, that means u care much for ur family,

is it thing will going like that only ?

why dont u celebrate ur 21st BD with ur gf/bf, friends, family together, i think it is the best solution rather that celebrate with a particular person only.

sometimes, i'm not sure what i feel... just dunno why?
just a story...
if u hurt/angry bout someone, den u hit a nail onto a piece of wood...
some time later, u will find that the wood full of nails.
but if u forgive/ help / making ppl happy, den u can try to pull out one nails once.
later on, u will see, there is no much nails on the wood left...
but but but...
there are still holes on the piece of wood.
will the hole be recover ?
than this is the time for u to show out ur skills d
the skill of patching up the holes...
if u skill is nice, than u will cover up the holes nicely
but if opposite, u will end up ur hands with those powder, and the holes over covered or not fully filled .

haha, seem like i type a lot today,
sometimes, when u came up with ur feeling, than u will never stop typing/ chatting.

okays, that's the end... see u all soon.
my result going to come out soon, but the time it come out, i already in the CAMP d.
tmr i am going to go for my camp for bout 8~9 days in Taiping ..
seen u all soon, and all the best.

^^

My IQ Test ...

2009-05-10T15:47:00.005+08:00

Congratulations Lim, your estimated I.Q. is 137!

Your general intelligence (g ) is in the genius range compared to the average person (I.Q. of 100);

and also far superior when when compared to the average Facebook user (I.Q. of 108).

Results Summary

Key Stats

Your I.Q. Score:
Right Answers:
Time Remained:

137
19 of 20 (95%)
8 minutes

Rank Among:

Your Friends:
Facebook Users:
General Population:

1 of 2
98^th Percentile
99^th Percentile

Analysis

What Your Score Means

Your I.Q. score measures your general intelligence (g ) relative to others, with the average (i.e. median) I.Q. set at 100.

Like many other natural characteristics such as height, lifespan, etc., differences in IQ scores are shown to follow normal distribution -
meaning that most people score near the average of 100, and the percentage of scores at either extreme progressively decreases.
When graphed the distribution of scores resembles a bell-shaped curve, infamously known as the "bell-curve".

The graph below locates your I.Q. within the normal distribution (bell-curve) of IQ scores:

This IQ Test has a standard deviation of 15 points, and as the bell-curve shows:

68% of IQ scores are between 85 and 115 - one standard deviation
95% of IQ scores are between 70 and 130 - two standard deviations

From Score to Rank

Similar to other standardized tests such as the SATs and ACTs (whose scores are shown to relate highly with IQ), IQ Test scores
are grouped into percentiles based on relative rank. The table below shows the rankings commonly used to profile scores:

Intelligence Rank	IQ Score	Percent of Population	1 in X People
Genius or Near Genius	145+	0.125%	1 in 800
Gifted	135-144	0.85%	1 in 115
Superior Intelligence	125-134	3.96%	1 in 25
High Intelligence	115-124	11.09%	1 in 9
Above Average	105-114	21.08%	~1 in 5
Average	95-104	26.11%	~1 in 4
Below Average	85-94	21.08%	~1 in 5
Low Intelligence	75-84	11.09%	1 in 9
Borderline Deficient	65-74	3.96%	1 in 25
Mentally Challenged	55-64	0.85%	1 in 115
Severely Challenged	<>	0.125%	1 in 800

Your I.Q. of 137 puts your Intelligence Rank at: between Gifted and Genius or Near Genius.

View Answers

Your answers by difficulty level

Each question is weighted based on its difficulty. The more difficult questions have a greater impact on your score.
The first ten questions in this test are fairly easy, the next five are moderately difficult, and the last five are difficult.

This table summarizes how you scored in each difficulty level:

Difficulty Level	Correct Answers	Compared to Average (Facebook)
Easier	10 / 10 (100%)	Above average ( 7.3 / 10 or 73% )
Medium	5 / 5 (100%)	Above average ( 3.1 / 5 or 62% )
Harder	4 / 5 (80%)	Above average ( 2.3 / 5 or 46% )
Total:	19 / 20 (95%)	Above average ( 12.7 / 20 or 64% )

The average person should get between 11 and 13 questions correct. The average of Facebook users so far is 12.7 of 20.
The answers you got correct or incorrect are displayed below.

Wesak with ur heart

2009-05-09T13:24:00.002+08:00

Today is Wesak Day ( 卫塞节 )
just wake up earlier in morning (7am is it early ?)
get myself prepared...
den follow Yujin's text msg as received
i went to Buddhist House in Westlake lo 1336.
waiting for others to come, as usual, i always arrive b4 the time.
den 9 of us with 2 cars went to the Kinta Buddhist Society Centre to celebrate Wesak Day
Being treat well from the aunties there, once they heard, YOU GUYS COME FROM UTAR ah ?
-.-" i was sweating at that time.
what happened ? anything wrong ?
i am from UTAR only ma
just like others, "poh thong lang jit lei" ?(普通人一个)
no need to special treat us la...
we came for Buddha Bathing only ( 浴佛 )

what i felt there ?
-1st time listen to Cantonese si fu speaking dharma
-1st time celebrate Wesak at different place
-1st time observation the culture of other places celebrate the same festival.

all the while, i was observing the procedures and how there's ppl cope with the Day.
it was quite warming, saw those aunties and uncle, even they not really know the meaning of Wesak,
but they have the heart to heading towards enlightenment .

learn a new thing a day ...

I FINISHED MY EXAM D !!!

2009-05-06T16:28:00.003+08:00

today i finished up my last paper , ELECTRONIC DEVICES I
hooray..

haha, just like coming back from hell( actually not )...
muahahaha,
NO more BETA / GAMMA stages d
can go back to normal life !!
that what i desire like sports, hiking, natural approaching, canoeing,

AND AND AND , most important is go back PENANG to gather with my friends ..
lots of them , miss them so much ...
miss my PENANG's food !!
( hopefully wont getting food poisoning again after got it once at Kampar )
it is really suffering...
ruining my stomach only..

What i felt bout the final ?
- Quite ok, sure will be better than last semester !!
- mayb got some surprise also ...

Will be getting in to the LIST ?
- nop, cos i got 1 REPEAT subject.

What are ur sem break planning?
- Sure go meet with my lovely friends
- go camp with my best fren and buddhist society member
- go enjoy Natural. cos natural is my SOUL !! I LOVE THEM MUCH !!
- go back sayang my family members...Especially my parent, and my sisters.
- of cos, nothing less than eat !!
- oh ya, cos i have involve in Buddhist Society Orientation Committee there
so i have to prepare for it.

What's Next ?
-
-
- Of cos waiting for my next post la !!

^^
all the best for those who still sitting for exam. good luck and JIA YOU

best regards,
Chin Seng ^^

Exam exam exam... short resting ...

2009-04-30T21:39:00.002+08:00

After today math 1 test..
haiz...
a bit despair d
cant get better grade for it ...

just left 2 more subjects
Digital Circuits and Systems

Electronic Devices 1

... have to put more effort d

Yeah my Course Photo

2009-04-23T02:45:00.003+08:00

HAHA, Finally my course photo can be uploaded d !!
nah nah, for those who wanna see leng chai and leng lui
just click on my photo ba ...!! haha

This is the photo where all ppl wear formal to take it..
less 9 ppl din take the photo.. haiz....can u spot me ?
haha, it is easy than drinking water ..lolz

want to find me ?
i am always the front, even in class also ...

the pushing started, but the tsunami wave havent come to in front..
but at the back one d kena the tidal wave by those who pushing from behind...

As a result, ??
haha ...
ma CHI BA BOOM lo ...my lecturer's favorite quote haha...
after the photo shot...
u know what happen ?
all fall down? all go back home ? all go yum cha ?
NO LAH OF COS...

After that, all go to Dr. Aissa aka the Canadian who lecture us Electronic Devices 1 class la

haha
^^
Miss u all guys...
All the best in ALL ur FINALS !!

Study week argh ....

2009-04-20T10:59:00.002+08:00

Die liao die liao ...

wanna exam d pulak ...

25th start my exam d ...

Moral come 1st ,

den after that 29th for Data structure and algorithms

30th terus for math 1 ...my repeat subject ...

den 4th for Digital Circuits and Systems

6th is my last subject
Electronic Devices I ...

after that is holiday lo ..
holiday also dunno what to do ,
but i already register for camp
from 22th may till 29th may
haiz.. sad, cant celebrate my fren's birthday.
cos i with ah chye go the camp...
but try to replace it earlier lo or after that camp..

hahha still wondering wanna join faci camp or not .
faci camp from 14th ~17th may ...

den if like that i no need go back after 6th of may d aftyer my exam d
den go faci camp , after faci camp only go back home for 3~4 days
den terus go the another camp for 8 days

aiya ... these stuff think so much for what pulak , quite sakit kepala nia
thinking for my exam better now ...
i am aiming for _____ ...

haha ... really this sem... got chance to get ________ ....

^^
all the best for my fren who going for their final exam
good luck and "jia you "

Today's VIVA for DCS

2009-04-08T18:50:00.005+08:00

After a long while, my last project for this semester finally closer to an end d.
today i showed my schematic of vending machine to my lecturer, Mr. Kuek.

1 pm my lab start...
most of them also doing the schematic of their own style of vending machine.
how bout me ?
i have done it since last week le ^^. just waiting for
VIVA .

what is VIVA ?
VIVA is a presentation to show out ur hard work and explain how ur machines works throughout the process.

Here is my Vending machine Schematic ...This above picture is my FPGA (Field-Programmable Gate Array)
I was assigning my input and output connection to the
Xilinx Spartan-3 (X3S200 FT256) board.

Drawing my circuit/schematics on the Xilinx program

Compress my upper circuit/schematic into a small block
called "Assignment 2" and added it with a Lacth name "LD".

Tata~~tata~~
This is the Xilinx Spartan-3 FPGA board

The RoHS compliant Spartan®-3 Starter Kit provides the user all the tools required to quickly begin designing and verifying their Spartan-3 Platform Designs.

Key Features

Spartan-3 (X3S200 FT256)
SRAM (Two 256K x 16)
RS232, JTAG3, JTAG-IV
Keyboard/Mouse, VGA connectors
RoHs compliant
Xilinx ISE® WebPACK™ or ISE Foundation™ evaluation software

Targeted Applications

Embedded Microprocessor
Telecom / Datacom
Digital Video
Multimedia
Automotive
Storage

This is how my Schematic of vending machine working:-

Initial state: there is no input, so the light on at light 1.

after 10 cent is input, the LED jump 1 place

after total of 20 cent is input, it jump to 3rd LED

30 Cent.

40 cent

at 40cent, if 10 cent is insert, will be a output LED light up at another end.

IF when it is at 30cent stage, a 20 cent is input, it will also have a output.

SEE or Not ? See or Not ?? (copy from Mr. Ooi C Y)

haha
just a simple design of vending machine now...
i think in future, will be have much more
interesting design...

^^
just a sharing with some of u le ?
hope u enjoy it !!

My Little Earth Hour 60

2009-03-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

8.04pm..
went to bath...

8.15pm
facing pc...

8.30pm
internet line suddenly dc...
omg, what happen ? why my line will dc one...

8.31pm
knock knock knock....
MY: wei turn off your light la !!!
sweat...
wa...." lai zhan kah ? " ( come real one ar//swt really want meh ? )
MY: not u told me us to shut down and turn off all lights during dinner meh ?
me: oh ya hor... almost forget d .

8.32~8.40pm
walk there and here, see here and there...
saw behind, in front,beside who did turn off their lights and so on ...
many ppl walking outside the streets ...
playing with the kitten in my house ...

8.41pm~8.50pm
fixing the pendaflour light outside my house and come in again,
then walk here and there in side house
dunno doing what also.

8.51~9.08pm
went back into my room,
dunno soing what also, sitting on the bed and looking to my phone...
finally, set timer and lay on the bed..

9.09~9.30pm
hyponising myself to take a short nap with relaxing whole body
part by part..
but dunno why cant concentrate on reliefing my body.
keep felt tension in my brain.
the slide of flashback keep on popping out,
flash back those time ... ... ... ... ...
den whole atmoshpere become very silent d.

why why why...?? why i still ...

what a week 11....

2009-03-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

this week... after busying for Assessment 3 of Data structure & algorithms on today...
finally i can take a long breath d..

but this coming friday have Electronic Devices I quiz 2 leh ...

have to study again d...
today i heard from fren, they said that Assessment 4 for DSA will be harder d ...
hope to done it quickly la...

week 12 i still have Moral presentation and Math I midterm test...

Still have many report and mini project haven done...
this week have to done some d ..
No time for relaxing also...
even want to find GF's time also dun hav...
so until now still single ...mayb too busy d la ...haha
some more my course is engineering course pulak...
cham ?
i think no le...
sometimes saw other ppl have gf/bf, mungkin teragak-agak nak seorang accompany me also..
but now sudah biasa berseorangan...
single also can be happy what ?
just see how u determine what kinda ppl u want to be only ..

...ok ok... wanna continue back my
Electronic devices reports d...

muahahaha~~~
(this semester, i have been "ki siao(abnormal)" along the time d) ...
muahaha~~

Assessment 3 ar !!

2009-03-22T11:58:00.000+08:00

walau eh ... spent so many hours for A3 of Data Structure & Algorithms d...
still in the circle of enqueue ...

how ?? , how to done it ?
HELP !!

still cant struggle out from the coding yet...
last assessment 2 , i used 4days to finish it , this time ??

dunno how le ...

Think out of the box ??

A3 killed me a lot !!
sipek sien le ... facing pc more than 12 hours a day ..

kinda ...

2009-03-17T09:10:00.002+08:00

these few weeks, dunno busy or pretending busy ,
got many things to be done, but all seem like nothing.
yet still dunno i busy for what ?
busy concerning bout the Malaysia's news ? other ppl's problem ?
i dunno why i always take other ppl's or social's thing to be concern in my path.
why dun i just take care of myself better to do the pointless and meaningless concerning ?

mayb i just cannot put down my things...
but i surely the kind who need socialise with ppl at anytime.
cos i like to share my experiences with my fren.

just i feel, feel very weird during this semester.
i no longer myself... i ... i ... i have to evolution ?
nope...
mayb 树欲静而风不止吧。。。

but i think i still can cope with it, just dunno one day or else...
i mayb will "chibaboom" only...
mayb it is a internal conflict with myself .

haiz... i dunno how to describe it...
negative negative negative keep on coming ...
is there any positive coming towards me ?

Accidently Accident Accidently....

2009-03-06T20:04:00.005+08:00

Quite long time din Blogging d ...
happened so many things...
Last Wednesday night, i went my friend's house to do my assignment at WESTLAKE, KAMPAR...
Just on my way back only, not even 100 meter from my friend house,
i get banged by a motor cyclist. the rider fetch a guy who din wear helmet, knocked toward my motor hardly.
After they banged to my motor, i fell together with motor...
after that, X guy ( who is rider, UTAR STUDENT, study EN ), and Y guy ( passenger,UTAR STUDENT, study CS ) come deal with me pulak.
when i drive along my way till wanna reach the corner, suddenly they turn in my way with great speed , and towards me some more.
For normal human being, sure 1st reaction is to avoid la...
but that time i tot i flee from it d,
den suddenly i was being banged.
Den, push up motor lo, den go beside "berunding"
the X guy said i wrong pulak ..
i told him, is his fault, cos he ride into my way.
and i try to avoid him, den he banged towards me,
by law and also common sense, sure is X guy wrong d la
after that i straight away phone my 2 frens come.
besides that, i copy down the motor's number , DAJ 4238
den the X guy started his @#%^&@%^ fucking damn voice with those rude words in front and behind. after that my fren came d.
the X guy ask me whether i got wrong or not, cos i ride to middle of the road and let him bang.
i din answer him ,
THEN HE PUSHED ME AWAY WITH GREAT STRENGTH, DEN HOLD ON MY NECK AND SLAP MY FACE said " YOU SAID YOU GOT WRONG OR NOT ? YES OR NO ?"
wth , this is what ? this is totally threatening me...
so, i force to admit ...
( why i din fight back or punch back ? let's say la , if u punch back, will he hit u back ? den the case will end with fighting ? FIGHTING is not necessary, And fighting is not the way to solve problem..!!)

after i admit, he want me to pay half to his repair fees too,
WTF , this is totally over... fine, cos i have being threaten. so agree 1st...
X guy said " if i cant get money from u, i will find ur fren to get the money !!"

ok after that, all go back d.
den my fren fetch me back home. my motor left at my fren house to let him call ppl repair.

after that, this is confidential's story d ...i cannot tell too much here.
All i can say is , i suffer some light injuries on legs and hand and forehead.
den now is quite ok , but whole body still feel pain every where after the impact until now typing the blog...

This incident a , really made me cant concentrate in my mid-term exams ..
during DCS mock test, i go out to answer phone call from X guy and my fren for times.
luckly it is a mock test. den today friday's ED 1 mid-term, i feel unsatisfy with my way to solve the question.
cant perform the best, due to "some and this " incident... made my mind cant calm down ..

haiz... test d passed .
now need to focus in my ED 1 reports d , still have many experiment report haven done.
this weekend need to finish up all of them d...
cos week 9,
i have another 2 mid-term test
DSA and DCS

....

what a "_________" day/week...

hope that tmr will be better and future sure have to be better !!

p/s: thanks to friends who concern bout me, and helped me..
p/s: I hope UTAR will really look up into this issue, this is a serious case
because this including threatening and crime.

VIVA !? forever !?

2009-02-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

VIVA VIVA VIVA...

perodua VIVA ??
nope ...
it is my Digital Circuit & Systems' VIVA
VIVA i actually dunno it's full expression.
but during VIVA, we normally will present
our assignment one on one to our lecture..

today let my lecturer disappointed leh ...
he saw my circuit, he thought i am pros...
cos i implement "bubble JKFF" in my circuit.
means it was totally different from normal JKFF.
so, he ask me instead of using bubble JKFF, why u din use normal
JKFF ?

that time i only realise that actually i was accidentally using bubble JKFF.
not i purposely modify it to be different
...
sweat ...
but till the end i also learn something new after the VIVA.
thanks to my group's member

- Wai Pin & Yoong Jian.

Besides, i also wanna say thanks X 1000 to
- Adrian Foo, Kim Seong & chi hwe...

they really help me a lot in last Moral Assignment .
^^ thanks to u all.

Week 8 ?
muahaha ... this friday i am going back to penang.
have to take my CPU masuk kilang .
due to the stupid USB problem..

Week 8 again ?
Electronics Devices 1 (ED1) mid term lo
Digital Circuits & Systems (DCS) mid term lo
Data Structure & Algorithms (DSA) quiz lo
MAth 1 need to summit assignment lo .

walau ...

week 9 le ?
DSA mid term + assesment lo ...

what else ...
study in UTAR is like that one la, some more study this science's course.
dint fainted during problem solving, is very lucky d ...

^^

week 6 ...so bad luck...

2009-02-21T17:22:00.002+08:00

after i bought my pc for bout to 1 month, i like it , but it dont like my pendrive and external harddisk...

sob sob ... it is kinda susah for me cos my USB port tak boleh guna ..
aku terus mampus for 2 weeks...
kat 2 minggu ini, ku telah diderita oleh USB port tu..

^%#$%#..

yet ... my dvd writer pulak hanya boleh baca CD je ..
KNN/KNS...

sipek TL ...
what to do ? format loh ...

after format ?
masih x leh guna lagi lah ...
CP betul ni...

today Saturday ... just finish my ED 1 ...
i should have score this quiz in order for ...
if not kena go to the railroad beside UTAR wesk lake there lie down d...

XD...

next week pulak , from today till saturday ... i kena kerja macam kerbau, gila macam Einstien
, rush like traffic in penang bridge, eyes look like Zoro , body like a cheap labour, eyes gonna open like 7-11 for 24 hours, drink nescafe like drinking mineral water, and have to buy extra 2~3 keyboard to spare for my project,assesment,assignment and reports...

ape lah ni...cakap kosong je ... buat lah betul-betul...

alah .. minggu 7 ni kena susah lah...

satuday have to finish DSA assesment,
sunday amend moral assignment,
monday pass up moral assignment and DSA assesment presentation
monday night finish my DCS final move.
tuesday wholeday arrange and addon and compile my DCS...
wednesday pass up DCS and VIVA for DCS...
wednesday night finish up my lovely Dr.Aissa's report
Thusday do experiment and summit reports ..

come to friday ...
with 20 ages , i am gonna look like 40 ages uncle d ...

haha

Keep it on... there is always someone behind me ....^^
cheers for week 7
and
for myself...

huaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-02-11T19:36:00.003+08:00

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00100 10000
01000 01000
10000 00100

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1 d 0 d

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TFF , DFF ,JKFF ??!!!

hypercubic Kanough Map ??!!!

instead of 3D kanough map , now doing 5D K-map !!

Waht is the hlel ???

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 84tu89

0100 1000 1001 0110
4 8 9 6

Week 4 in Utar...

2009-02-09T09:35:00.002+08:00

walau... week 4 a .. really a tired week...
from monday till friday, almost wake up all the time from 6.45am till 12 am ++ only sleep
busy from monrning till night ... busy for what ?
of cos busy bout course la, society la, my self development la...this and that lo..
most depress day was thursday...
WHY ?
cos that day, i cant manage to get the experiment result from Bipolar Junctions Transistor( BJT )
in 3 hours ... kinda low mood tat day ..why will have no result one ??
my Dr.A said something wrong with ur connection ? something wrong with the devices ?
something wrong with the components ?
WTH...
previous 2 experiment also gone smoothly , just this time only ...
pif pif ...
the next day( friday ), i ask my senior, he said is normal that u cant get result...huh? really is normal ?
for me, mayb not le ...
haih nvm la , a shui week finally gone off so far..
week 5 would be better ba ...

week 5 ? have to summit Moral Tugasan lo, summit report 2 for electronic devices lo, do tutorial for math 1, math 2 , Electronics devices, practical for data structure & algorithms ....
and most most important

digital circuit and systems PROJECT is going to assign to us d ...
it is regarding bout
-VENDING MACHINE ..

we have to design a vending machine's schematic and internal logic and circuit design ..
i quite thirst for that , cant wait to see the question now ... ^^

haha.

hopefully week 5 WILL be more smooth and Successfull...

Wee low's 21 n gather-gather...

2009-01-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

It was a wonder gathering last night... with some of my old schoolmates...
besides, we also celebrated wee low's 21 birthday, seem like belated birthday, but she purposely come from Perak to meet with us... so gam dong... actually planned to go Kek Lok Si Temple to have a look at it's Thousands Lamp during night ...
unluckily, planning changed. so we met up in McD...haha
Have so much Fun Time with them , some of them purposely come back from Sabah, Johor, Selangor, Kedah , Perak...
To Celebrate CNY. ^^

After celebrate wee low's bd, we went to find ah jet ( tao gkeh kia of chim bee ) at his shop to drink tea...
chit n chat till 12am... den need to say bye bye again... most of them have to fly back to Sabah UMS d ... sob sob ... ^^ but we come to a "PLAN"
seem like so excited ....
the Plan is .....Go Sabah Climb Mount Kinabalu and diving, rafting there... haha..but still under consideration when to go ...

Wee Low n her 21st Cake...

Group Photo at McD

4 Girls so ai bin... ^^ haha
from left SH,SH,WL,JL

Finally,they look at me d... ops is my camera..(-.-)"

Have a photo with Keng chye, wee low n Kah boon ..^^

Love tat night much .. ^^