chapter 2

just finished my 8 weeks training from DreamCatcher ...
training here is not the same like learning in the university ..
previously in university,
we pay to learn, result good or not, is up to u.

now ?
we are paid to learn, no matter what, u also need to some outcome from there.

well... for me, learning is great. get to know new friends(not colleagues, but soon)
see something i never see b4. ^^

here i share some moments we being together...

the situation when we all "focus" on our work ~

Having lunch together in Azuma

Solving problem in group, playing LEGO set

Well, at the end i managed to complete the whole training with 100% attendance

i enjoyed along the learning path ..
next i going back to reality already -----> working , after the training ... haha
stay tune ~

next chapter ~

Nothing much but upper side of it. All the while was ok, but at the very last strike, missed it.
Well, what done was done. In the next chapter, life not gonna be easy. Such precious opportunity i got, i'm appreciating it.

So, still going on...

原来……

从没想过短学期是怎么样的……
直到自己亲身体验了才知道……
上课读书温习做工了才发现……
原来短学期是这样匆忙段暂……
很想找个时间找个地点歇歇……
从忙忙碌碌中寻找回中心点……
不然一不小心就会失去平衡……
希望与支持一直都在我身边……
要懂得发现它感受它的存在……
而且也要学会反应任何困境……
以便在茫茫人海中快乐学习……
^^

憾

何曾时候看回自己的时候，就觉得不可思议。
人啊，一直在进化，一直在改变。
从小时候到现在，思想不断转换。
这几天里，一直忙碌的过活，却没停下脚步来查寻
那已失去的感性，当初还以为理性会好些，而且做起事来也不需要放些感觉下去。
就把感性埋没起来，因为不需要它。没了它，事情、功课、任务执行起来也比较顺畅，因为没有感情。黑就是黑，白就是白，没有灰色地带。
可是每当忙碌的生活结束，就会感到空虚。
因为没有了暂时性的目标，不知往哪走。不知怎么
昨天考完试后，就看了些香港连续剧《浦松龄》，看着看着
就投入在每一段有意思的情节里，看到它的价值。
就联想到年少时候我是怎么对待自己的父母，年少时的不足。
人总会有犯错的时候，但是往往都不会觉得自己错，而是埋怨他人的不足，使到自己被受连累。然而，当看回自己的内心时候、当被感触到的时候， 就会慢慢的想想自己。
为什么自己错了还不承认？ 也许当下的自己没有那一点点的觉照吧。
当自己一个人静静时，脑海里总会浮现“过去”与“未来”，从没想过当下，也没好好的把握当下；就一直地往“过去”与“未来”。明日复明日，明日何其多；昨日复昨日，昨日何其多。
人若有当下的觉照，很多细节，很多烦恼，很多错失都可以挽回，都可以避免。
很多人都知道，但都没做到。其实也知道也好，但如果……就没有如果了。
何曾想，我多久没感性了？多久没觉照了？

jaga diri...

dah minggu ke-8 la... aku masih belum sedia semua ni,
dah hari ni makin dekat...
kan aku tau, berdikari, tak payah lah orang lain tegur lagi kan /.\
dah 22 ni, ingat masa tu aku masuk uni, apa yg aku nak ?
dah sampai skrg ni, aku pun belum capai lagi.
hanya satu-satu ni saja.
masa ni, hang semua tengah buat apa? bersoronok ke? belajar ke ?
dah lebih dari satu bulan aku tak balik pinang le.
tiap-tiap hari kat depan komputer, tengok langit kat tingkap kiri aku
hidup manusia ni pelik la? bila aku nak balik ke "zaman gila buku" aku?
berat kerja khusus dah makin banyak, buku yg kena baca lagi meningkat.
oi... dah sampai masa pergi buat pengajian pelaran la...

okay saja ni la, bila berdepan dgn apa-apa pun
aku kena tenangkan hati aku, dan lihat betul-betul
baru saja buat keputusan.
sama dengan hang juga... berusaha lagi .. ^^

Power up...

again again i 'm telling myself...
get to work more harder.
I need to gain the strength from confidence.
work ? study ?
no no no ... i should have to start my study long ago.
now ? I'm proceeding to another level, another stage,
another form of life...
that is what i going to be.

it is almost there, going for my last birthday in my university life...
it's just a starting point of life.
changes all along the path.
next year's today's date... i might b somewhere in the industrial zone d.
back to now... going for my FYP...
and enjoy the last year life in university ...

time passes fast...
it is year 3 already ...
^^

Power low...

the fuel getting lower and lower...
the concentration getting lesser and lesser...
are u with me ?
where r u now ?
where are u, my heart ?
the efficiency getting low...

where is ur heart ?
how long have you been never with ur heart ?
ah seng... week 5 going to end lo...
where r u ?